yesterday i took a test and i failed it miserably. when the teacher gave us the tests i was looking at it and felt so sick to my stomach i almost puked on the table. on closer inspection of the test there were words that didnt even look real.
so, now at least you understand why i failed the test. i know it is not a good excuse, but still. there actually is a point to this sad story. and no, it is not that i am going to drop out or anything stupid like that. i want to tell you about one of my very best friends. i know i have a lot of best friends, but this one just happened to be online at 1AM, so she was there to help me out.
i have know sabrina a little over a year. we were neighbors when i lived in musky. i finally met her my spring semester. i wish i could/would have met her sooner, but whats done is done. i have done many embarrassing things with sabrina since i have known her. having our rhc ask us if we were drunk while playing frisbee at midnight, confusing our ra by switching houses when he came over, making her housemate climb out the window to get the frisbee (dont worry, it was daytime), lots of things that involved our rhc (but we arent gonna talk about everything right now..... hehehe), boy problems, friend issues, craptastic roommate junk, we've done it all. BUT last night sabrina was really there for me.
i had been online off and on all night and decided to check my grade on the terrible test that i knew i did not do well on. but when i saw my grade i about died. i had utterly failed my test and was ready to give up, we arent even half way through the 3rd week of the 1st semester fyi. i was crying and typing and crying and typing and being a debbie downer but sabrina wouldnt let me stay that way. the whole time she just encouraged me, telling me that i was gonna make it. that i was gonna pass the program. just letting me know that someone had faith in me.
it really meant a lot to me. my old friend (who i just went through a terrible breakup with b/c of my schooling) was debbie downer, always telling me to just do something easier. she didnt like how i would get crabby during midterms and finals and projects. she wanted me to so something easier. always telling me i needed a back up plan and a back up back up plan. never telling me to succede, always telling me i would fail. always holding me back, tearing me down. but sabrina, sheisnt like that. wo both have problems at school, we both get crabby, we both deal with it. we encourage each other, we have a communial mutualism. we both benefit but we wouldnt die if we didnt have the other. in my other friendship, we had a parasitic mutualism going on, i gave and gave and gave and all she did was take. it wasnt cool, not one bit.
now i am not saying that sabrina is my only friend. she is my friend from college in musky. i have other friends who continually encourage me, sabrina just happened to be online at the moment.
my bestest friend laura is in LA, so we got a bit of a time difference in the way, but we work around it. we both encourage each other, but i am a bit scared to tell her i failed. because i do not do good with failing things. laura is my only friend from my group 'back home' from when i was gone for a year. we both moved, so we both know how it is to 'not be at home'. october cannot come soon enough.
sorry, my vet tech blog became an emotional downpour. but it did have to do with vet tech-y stuff. cause i did fail that test. i dont like parasites. they have weird names and there are too many of them.
i did get an A on the quiz i had today though!